Myself


Today was horrible. I started the day by accidentally leaving my tumbler at home. I NEED WATER AFTER PJ FFFFUUUUUU- Anyway, when the daily assembly started, I was feeling so pumped for the Geo presentation (I had finished doing the stuffs needed for the presentation the night before, oh yeahh) Then I got to know the teacher was absent. Oh, well, FU. All of my worries and cries yesterday were for nothing. That’s not the worst though.

After Geo we have PJK. At least, that was fun. It was just us, 2As, playing football using a Volleyball xD And, as of my first mistake (didn’t bring any water), I was thirsty. VERY thirsty. urghh… After PJ we have PAI/BC/BT. Whoa, what’s that? That’s Pendidikan Islam, Bahasa Cina and Bahasa Tamil. So all of us were separated. Malays in 2B, Chinese in 2A and Indians in 2C.

I left my Geo presentation stuffs (actually, it’s just a piece of mahjong paper) at the back of my class (2A). After PAI, I went back to 2A and saw the presentation material was ripped a bit (i wouldn’t call it a bit though). I was frustrated and furious, and all I could think of was just how horrible my birthday had been. And I tore the mahjong paper apart, bit by bit, little by little, showing how frustrated I was and my friends just watched me with a worry on their faces.

And the rest of the story is history……………………………….

On the bright side of today, there were lots of wishes on my FB page and I am very happy right now :] Syazana gave me a, umm… gelas eh syazana? xD Oyang gave me a teddy bear :P Nadiah and Nabilah, the twins (xD) gave me a bag. What kind of bag, how do I explain it eh? xD Haawa gave me a Disney princesses’ notebook (urghh….) thanks though! xD

And you’re right, Haawa! I am a Sleeping Beauty xD After coming back from school, I played Minecraft a bit and sleep the whole day. Aahhh, what a wonderful way to celebrate your own birthday, by sleeping :3

Thanks to everyone on facebook who had wished me. I really appreciated it whether you really mean it or not. You’ve made my horrible birthday (with the mahjong paper thingy…) turns into a quite fun birthday. No cakes though, only in Minecraft. Itu pun aku buat sendiri! xD

My almost finished cake with my two cute wolves :3

Anyway, here’s a song for me (note: FOREVERALONE) :]

“Blowing out the candles on another birthday cake,
Old enough to look back,
And laugh at my mistakes,
Young enough to look at the future,
And like what I see”

THE END.

I feel worthless, foolish, unwanted and ignored by friends. How can I put it all behind me? I don’t even have a decent friend at Setia Alam. I always just tag along with ‘em, like the term ” jumping on the bandwagon” in football (I think, lol, might be wrong) Got it? No? It’s okay, you don’t need to.

Anyway, I don’t know, it’s been ages since people actually give me a chance to introduce things I love to them. The last time was MAFIA, my best friends in Primary School. I managed to convert them into Kaiser Chiefs’ fans :P . I love them… My best friends… The people who actually know the real me.

Now? People just look at me with their eyes half closed. They ask me about things that I like and when they don’t know them (99% of happening), they just move on. They don’t even stop and say “What’s that?” or “I’ll give it a listen”.  They just… Don’t care… :'( What’s even worse, there are friends that didn’t even respect what I like, the things I’m interested in. Such great friends I have, huh?

You don’t even have a second thought about how I feel, what I feel. Don’t you? Well this is the time to tell you the truth, I was hurt when you say Lee Dewyze sucks. I was hurt when you say Danny Gokey is a singing reptile. I was hurt when you say Wall-E is just a walking trash (or something like that).

But you never knew. You thought it was all a joke and I’m fine with it. But the truth is, I am NOT fine, I WAS hurt and I’m so damn happy  that I don’t have to put up with you anymore.

Sure I was guilty too, I admit it. I had once said that Lady Gaga sucks and I’m sorry for all Gaga fans. But that was a long long time ago and I’ve changed, for the better.  I have new friends here who love artists that I dont like or, heck, even hate. But who am I to criticize them for liking what they like, it’s their freaking choice and I just have to respect it. Like a good friend would.

<sigh> This post is for expressing what I feel right now, buzz off if you don’t like it.

Last. But not least. I got this from Anonymous and was amazed by every word of it. It described me completely and I thought I’d share it with you all:

“There are so many ways to describe myself, but I believe one way fits best. I am but a book that lays on a table, open to a random page for all the world to see.

Many pass by the table, only giving a second glance as to why there is a book open halfway through.

Some take a cursory examination of the book and soon leave; others try to read me but become bored before they finish reading. These people eventually put me back down on the table, yearning to be finished and understood.

Then, there are the few people who take me, read me, understand me, and embrace me. These people who read between the lines and look a little closer into unveiling the knowledge, secrets, and idiosyncrasies that many do not see. These people, who are my best friends, read every word of every page; these people are the ones who truly know me.

If you have tried to read this book, I thank you dearly. If you have looked a little bit closer and got to read the real me. All of me.”

P.s: he wrote this all by himself.

THE END.

After like, 3 hours of minecraft, I’m now sitting on a chair, listening to Hey Jude (repeatedly) while following the Soccernet Transfer Deadline Day Live HERE Now, this is what I call relaxing, lol.

Anyway, Tottenham have been really quiet for now… But you never know what Harry will do, there’s roughly 3 hours left in the transfer window. Hmm…

Na na na na na na naa, na na na naa, Hey Jude~Paul McCartney

Poor Newcastle, Andy Carroll is likely to leave for Liverpool, hmm… Uhh, I’m a bit sleepy right now, it’s 3:50 in the morning here. I’m staying up just for the sake of the transfer window deadline, so you better do some spendings now, ‘Arry! LOL, not really, I always stay up late.

I seriously think that this is the lamest post I’ve ever posted, oh well…

The End.

I miss you, SAMTTAJ, a lot.

The End,

-___________-

Well,, the new school is o-k only. I have no good friends though, pfft. It’s sooo boring when the teacher doesn’t come in. Yeahh, the other students are potpetpotpet -ing with their ‘gang’, I guess. I’m all alone. There. In the corner. In front of the class. Near the front door. You know what I always do when there’s free time?

Doodling. Drawing anime cartoons. Well, drawing ‘em Horribly. Then, when my bored-o-meter is maximum, I just sleep. Yes. You know what? I actually slept on my first day of school. When there’s no teachers of course! Sleeping in class when the teacher is teaching is silly. Well,, ummm, I did sleep during math class *cough* -___- The teacher wasn’t teaching anymore and I’ve finished my work, okayyy,  besides, the teacher didn’t mind. At all. That shows how invisible I am.

Okay, now back to the title, “I Am What I Am”. Yes, Exactly.  I’m the weird girl, who doodles a lot in class, doesn’t talk much, always talking to myself, listen to Alt. Rock music, does NOT listen to nowadays pop crap and likes playing indie games like Minecraft, wait, no, is Minecraft an indie game? WHATEVER. Yes, I’m that girl. If you happen to know another girl with these, err, personality? Call me, k. lol. That’s weird.

By the way, this is my most recent profile pic :-

WE ARE N17 !!! Well, at least they are, I’m U13. -______- < ya dunno wut N17 is? :P >

OKAY, THAT’S IT! ENOUGH. Pfft. Ok, Goodbye.